Manko

A love letter from Merve

You're stuck

and you're shaking.

The rigidity that trembling

gives to your bones and muscles

makes the shell even stronger.

Then,

when you least expect it,

you crack.

A crack

It leaks.

Everything leaks.

And as it leaks,

the places where you cracked hurt.

All your fears are stripped naked, afraid to stay with yourself.

You peel your emotions

layer by layer

you can smell the pungent odor

of each leaf.

All the emotions you don't look at

all the emotions you don't care about.

Stinking there.

Disgust.

It suffocates you.

At the same time

you feel

guilty.

Anger

at everything that hardens

you.

So many wasted and moldy emotions inside the shell of fear.

Sort through it,

identify what is still usable

and set it aside,

discard the rotten.

Hope that you can find new emotions.

Soak your anger in water like a hot iron.

Believe.

You will heal.